from the bottom of my broken heart

Assalamualaikum,

tajuk kalini mcm tajuk lagu kan? mmg nk citer psl lagu pon. aku ni mmg suke sgt gne lirik2 lagu utk express feeling aku. sbb kdg2 ayat direct ni org payah nk paham atau kdg2 wat org rase geli geleman. so rsnye gne ayat2 lirik lagu ni mgkn la dorg bole lekat dlm pale otak tanpa wat dorg perlu muntah mcm keracunan makanan. mungkin.

sbnrnye smlm aku g karok dgn mmber opis aku. pastu sape tah teramik lagu ni. lirik lagu ni mcm kenaaaaa sgt dgn perasaan aku utk first love aku. lirik dia:

"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead, emptiness behind
Where do I go?

And you didn't hear
All my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears
Did you know, still I miss you somehow


From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

"Baby," I said, "please stay.
Give our love a chance for one more day"
We could have worked things out
Taking time is what love's all about

But you put a dart
Through my dreams through my heart
And I'm back where I started again
Never thought it would end



You promised yourself
But to somebody else
And you made it so perfectly clear
Still I wish you were here



"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?

ni yg wat aku teringat blk kata2 dia kat aku aritu (kitorg msh contact lg as fren)

"awk xkn penah jmp lagi org mcm saya"

dem right! mmg xde org yg serupa 100% dlm dunia ni. tp aku phm maksud dia. dan mmg, xde sape yg dpt bg perhatian, dpt jg dan bg ape yg penah dia bg kt aku suatu masa dlu. dgn dia, aku sbnrnye byk blaja mcm2. dgn dia la aku teror sgt detect klo partner aku menipu, mcm mn nk percy instinct, mcm mn nk perangkap partner yg tgh menipu. dgn dia jgk aku pecaya karma.. what u give u get back.

sbb tu la aku smp skrg xberani nk curang dgn partner yg aku anggap serious sbb aku tau rasenye bila 'karma slap on your face'. sakit tahu! sbb tu la bila ptus dgn third love aku, aku rase lega sbnrnye, sbb perpisahan tu bkn aku yg wat hal. so guess who gonna get slap on face after diz? haaa

dia ni sgt sgt penyabar. aku punye mengade wat hal dlu dia xpenah tengking atau herdik2 aku walau sekali pon. mase kantoi aku curang pon dia xde wat pape utk cederakan "badan" mahupon "halwa telinga" aku. tp dia pakai saiko je. dia balas dgn cara halussssss je. wlw mcm mana aku maki, herdik dia pon dia cool sesgt. wlw mcm mn aku buat pon dia ttp cube beri yg terbaik utk aku, cuba lynkn perangai aku yg mmg childish gler waktu tu. well mmg waktu tu aku pon muda lg. xmatang sungguh laa.. 

sbnrnye, kehilangan dia penah wat aku jadi xmenentu. hidup aku rs kosong gler. aku mcm hilang tempat bergantung padahal aku duk dgn family tu. tp sbb slalunye dia yg akan jg sume keperluan aku, keperluan adik aku, so kehilangan dia mmg wat aku rs rapuh sgt2. xde lg org yg akan bawak aku ke mane je aku nk, xde lg teman utk aku luah sume kesedihan aku, xde sape lg yg akan ajar aku psl internet (dia yg ajar aku gne ym, friendster sume tuuu) xde sape yg akan dtg melepak kt uma aku smp ke ptg, melayan je sume ape aku nk. berkorban segalanya utk aku. tp aku xpenah rs terkilan melepaskn dia sbb skrg dia dpt cinta yg lebih bagus, lebih bahagia dr ape yg dia pnh dpt dr aku dlu, dan aku pon happy utk dia. well, cinta xsemestinya memiliki kan.. mcm kisah aku dgn arwah amn jgk..

di kala mcm ni la wat aku rs if only i get someone like my first love again.. if only..